†HAMLETâ€
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SHAKESPEARE
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†Opheliaâ€
There is a willow grows
ascaunt the brook,
That shows his hoar
leaves in the glassy stream.
Therewith fantastic garlands
did she make
Of crow-flowers, nettles,
daisies, and long purples,
That liberal shepherds give
a grosser name,
But our cold maids
do dead men's fingers call them.
There on the pendant
boughs her crownet weeds
Clamb'ring to hang,
an envious sliver broke,
When down her weedy
trophies and herself
Fell in the weeping brook.
Her clothes spread wide,
And mermaid-like
a while they bore her up;
Which time she chanted
snatches of old lauds,
As one incapable
of her own distress,
Or like a creature native
and indued unto that element.
But long it could not be
Till that her garments,
heavy with their drink,
Pulled the poor wretch
from her melodious lay
To muddy death.
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- Hollywood:: Nikki
- Censor:: Bush
- Nascar:: races
- Lube:: Oz, don't ask
- Mortgage:: not me!
- Freedom:: integral
- Champion:: Queen
- Reality TV:: escape
- New York:: state of mind
- Tease:: strip
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| Molly Ivins on the State of the Union - so I'm a few days late! |
| 02.28.04 (8:58 pm) |
Bush's speech contained so many outrageous distortions -- on No Child Left
Behind, Pell grants, the Patriot Act, job training, the deficit, on and on
-- it takes the public interest groups pages just to correct the most
blatant disinformation.
My favorite line was, "Jobs are on the rise." Not a hey or a howdy to the 9
million unemployed Americans, just a flat lie. Piece of work, isn't he?
-Molly Ivins
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Don't you just love Molly?
She really tells it like it is.
I bet she's writing about Bush's cover up of all the real problems with our country right now - "manned mission to MArs," and "Constitutional Amendments."
...anyone else think he's trying to find a place to send homosexuals where they won't 'bother' him anymore? I hope you kids all enjoy the red planet.
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She packed my bags last night pre-flight
Zero hour nine a.m.
And I'm gonna be high as a kite by then
I miss the earth so much I miss my wife
It's lonely out in space
On such a timeless flight
And I think it's gonna be a long long time
Till touch down brings me round again to find
I'm not the man they think I am at home
Oh no no no I'm a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone
Mars ain't the kind of place to raise your kids
In fact it's cold as hell
And there's no one there to raise them if you did
And all this science I don't understand
It's just my job five days a week
A rocket man, a rocket man
And I think it's gonna be a long long time...
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| Judas. Interpretation. |
| 02.28.04 (4:31 pm) |
Funny thing Interpretation. It's not something we are fully conscious of or adept at. The Discovery channel aired a program today highlighting a gentleman, his name escapes me, who wrote a book about Judsas and his roll in the Bible.
Instead of the traditional christian view of Judas as traitor, the man interpreted Judas's acts as those of a loyal disciple following his teacher's wishes - and when the full consequences of those wishes were understood, chose to die at his own hands rather than live without Jesus.
Interesting. Read the verses in question. Jesus in the garden, the centurions coming, the kiss, having new insight is your interpretation the same?
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| Grumble, grumble... |
| 02.27.04 (10:38 pm) |
A'ight. I've spent the better part of the evening restoring what I could to this blog. If it ain't here any more and you miss it, let me know - I forgot everything other than what you see.
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| #!@% |
| 02.27.04 (7:56 pm) |
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| Turn of the screw |
| 02.27.04 (6:01 pm) |
How's that for a blog title?
It has nothing to do with my post really.
I have decided to start a quiz blog. Keep an eye out for it - should be up sometime this weekend.
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| SHUT UP AND DANCE! |
| 02.26.04 (8:25 pm) |
I NAILED my skills practice today -ain't nobody ever give financial information on the telephone better than I did today. I may have a job yet!
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| VOTE |
| 02.24.04 (9:27 pm) |
VOTE for Selina610 on hotblogs - or else I won't, erm, er, well - because I say so!!
Her link is under my blogroll at Something to Blog About or just click on Tori!
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| Final week of Training |
| 02.23.04 (7:41 pm) |
This is my final week of training. It's mind numbingly boring at this point and I find my mind wandering even more than usual.
Today I found myself thinking about when I was a little girl and who I thought I would be when I grew up.
This is where my mind took me, Durant, OK. 1980ish. Ms. McDaniel's kindergarten room. Brand new yellow Daisy Duke t-shirt.
Ahem, "What I Want To Be When I Grow Up."
When I grow up I want to be Daisy Duke. Daisy is very pretty and wears pantyhose and high heels with her cutoffs and halter tops. She drives a cute yellow jeep and hangs out with her two cousins Bo and Luke. They all live with their Uncle Jesse who has a long white beard.
Daisy doesn't have a boyfriend but Enos the policeman likes her and I'm pretty sure Cooter does too but he is dirty and needs to take a bath.
Daisy works at the Boar's Nest but they are always dancing and stuff so I don't think it is a hard job. She makes lots of money and is the only person in her family with a job. She has a good tan.
The End.
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| Surreal World, season 2, Finale. |
| 02.23.04 (7:10 pm) |
It's over.
This season's Surreal World was the best ever. (Yes, it's only the second
season - whatever.)
The finale was terrific! Several of our housemates had flashes of personal
insight. For example, Traci Bingham. After telling her fiance she took her
top off in the hot tub (even though she didn't, she took her panties off),
he chided her about her actions. "Just remember, my parents will be
watching this show right about the time of our wedding." You could actually
seee the cartoon lightbulb going on over her head. Final judgement on
Traci, I like her. Sure she can be a brat but can't we all?
Then there is Trishelle. She may have made the most important statement of
her life last night. "I will never do reality television again." Let's
just hope she sticks to her word.
Why did it come to this? During the
Sally Jesse Raphael segment, Sally told her that her behaviour was
unbecoming and she might(?) have a drinking problem - this after a montage
of her hittting on Vanilla Ice, drunkenly stumbling around various locales,
and bragging about her drinking stamina. "It's not fair," she cried! "I'm
not like that."
Trishelle, honey, you spent a season on the Real World showing us who you
are - not to mention the RW/RR games you played in. We know who you are -
did you never watch these shows? Is the reality of some of your actions too
hard to face? I actually felt sorry for you last night - not because you
were being "victimized" but because you have deluded yourself so much. Even
your Surreal World counterparts wouldn't lie to you and tell you that your
behaviour was just being misrepresented! Take your own advice! Never go on
a reality tv show ever again!
Final judgement on Trishelle - she is a troubled young woman who needs to
pull herself together before she ends up like a (if possible) low rent
Courtney Love. ...she could take a few tips from...
Ice, Baby. He found a mentor during the "experience." Yes, Vanilla Ice has
found a hero in Erik Estrada. He even managed to transcend Sally Jesse's
comments about his bad attitude. An epiphany maybe?
Erik and Tammy - eh, they were grown ups through out the show - nothing too
exciting about them last night. final judgement - two thumbs up.
Ron Jeremy. :) The man has the best grip on reality of them all. He
likened his experience to the end of an affair. For a while you talk every
day, then it's every other day, then it's once a month finally you just
stop talking all together. He knows he won't be dining with Tammy Faye and
Traci and Trishelle won't be having a slumber party any time soon. Although
he may think about the slumber party thing a lot...
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| Blog maintenance |
| 02.22.04 (12:13 pm) |
Grrrrrr... still tweaking the blog - hence this addition to the post. I have to do something with this freakin' header...
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A'ight.
I tweaked my blog a bit.
No more avatar.
If I used to link to your blog under links - you are now under Blogroll on the left side. I highly reccomend a blogroll account btw, it frees up your links and is easy to maintain.
Other bits and bobs have been updated, trashed and otherwise rearranged as well. It has been a long time coming folks. A long time coming.
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Last edit of the evening - I am satisfied, for now.
If any of you guys can do anything with R. Kitty let me know.
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| NAY-der |
| 02.22.04 (12:09 pm) |
Ralphie's back again kids. I could do the usual rant about how a vote for Nader is a vote for Bush but I won't. Instead, I will just state my personal belief.
Nader is satan and all his minions seem to understand is that he wants pot to be legalized.
Listen Minions, no way is congress ever gonna let RALPH NADER accomplish anything, no less the legalization of marijuana.
As for the handful of minions who actually know what Nader stands for, face reality. Get lawmakers into public office at a local and state levels before you try to make someone President. Baby steps kids! BABY STEPS.
Grrrrr. I need a tums, and a sleeping pill...
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 02.22.04 (9:17 am) |
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- Angel:: baby
- Birth:: day
- Logic:: huh?
- Stars:: astrho
- Nursery:: plants
- View:: overrated
- Hart:: to Hart
- Creation:: Evolution
- End:: The Doors
- Fortune:: 500
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| The Kingdom of the Bored |
| 02.21.04 (8:51 pm) |
 | My sphere is Guardian (Person of great Love and Altruism), and my class is Rogue (Precise and Unhindered). I am a Protector. You won't let anything or anyone threaten the ones you love if you have anything to say about it -- and you aren't afraid to back that up by any means possible. You might get your hands dirty in your life. You might do things that more lawful people would question. But there is no doubt in your mind that what you are doing is right, and you will have no regrets. To be a Protector is to shed many layers of "status quo," of "morality," and, to a degree, of honor, in order to dedicate yourself to the protection of your love in any way you can. You are a truly rare breed. You are loved in return for your great dedication by the people who value you. You know how to keep secrets, and uphold your word. What kind of Warrior are you? |
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| My Own Personal Hell |
| 02.21.04 (8:38 pm) |
goatherders
Circle I Limbo General asshats
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind elitists
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow Heroine Chic Super Models
Circle IV Rolling Weights good ol' boys
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas Republicans
Circle VII Burning Sands Greens
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement NAMBLA Members
Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell |
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| Fairy Tale Generator |
| 02.21.04 (8:31 pm) |
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FAIRY TALE  nce upon a time there has a young GOOSE HERDER named RICARDO. He was STEATHILY FLIRTING in the BALMY forest when he met SCARLET BYRON, a run-away MILK MAID from the ROUGH Queen OPHELIA.
RICARDO could see that SCARLET BYRON was hungry so he reached into his ENVELOPE and give him his MASCULINE GOAT CHEESE. SCARLET BYRON was thankful for RICARDO's GOAT CHEESE, so he told RICARDO a very NELLY story about Queen OPHELIA's daughter GUINIVERE. How her mother, the ROUGH Queen OPHELIA, kept her locked away in a THATCH HOUSE protected by a gigantic KITTEN, because GUINIVERE was so DAMP. RICARDO FLEW. He vowed to SCARLET BYRON the MILK MAID that he would save the DAMP GUINIVERE. He would PLAY the KITTEN, and take GUINIVERE far away from her eveil mother, the ROUGH Queen OPHELIA, and WALK her. Then, all of the sudden, there was a FEMININE LIGHTNING and SCARLET BYRON the MILK MAID began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic KITTEN from his story. ROUGH Queen OPHELIA ROCKED out from behind a CRYSTAL BALL and struck RICARDO dead. In the far off THATCH HOUSE you could hear a TINKLING BELLS. THE END. Make your own Fairy Tale at fuali.com
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| Alarmists |
| 02.21.04 (6:13 pm) |
[u][b]Rockers pose as teens to hit charts[/b][/u]
Fri 20 February, 2004 22:19
LONDON (Reuters) - An ageing rock group gave themselves a facelift by getting a group of teenagers to stand in for them on the video of their latest song, helping them score their first chart hit for some 15 years.
Convinced the music industry is prejudiced against wrinkly rockers, The Alarm gave themselves the pseudonym The Poppyfields and persuaded a group of fresh-faced youths to mime their part.
"They did it to show they wanted to be judged on music and not on their image and haircuts of 15 years ago," said a spokesman for the band.
The single, 45RPM, went into the charts this week at number 28.
The Welsh band were previously best known for 1983 hit "68 guns" and said they pulled the stunt to show how much image affected sales in the music industry.
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| The Saturday Slant, You've Failed, What do you do now? |
| 02.21.04 (1:32 pm) |
Saturday Slant - click the link below to explore the creators site. Basically, he poses a question every Saturday. This is my attempt at answering it.
You've failed, what now?
I take at least one day to lie around in bed and feel sorry for myself. Nothing's worse than a failed Pollyanna perking around a lost cause. That's not to say I would give up. After I nursed my wounds and wallowed in self-pity, I would just pick myself back up again and try something else - or if it were a task with "do-over" rights, I would give it another crack.
Failure sucks. But if you are so inclined you may choose to learn from it most of the time. There are going to be times where there is nothing to learn and you realize that life just kicked you in the pants but hey, that's what living is about - it's a holistic approach experience.
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| Dali |
| 02.21.04 (9:18 am) |
Goo!! You are SALVADORE DALI.
You paint the bizarre and surreal. No one can
figure you out, and everyone has given up
trying to guess what crazy thing you'll do
next. Your friends look forward to whatever
outrageous endeavor you will engage in next.
Which famous artist most reflects your personality?
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| Huh... |
| 02.20.04 (8:59 pm) |
You are a beautiful person, in a wistful kind of way. If you could, you would spend all your time daydreaming and writing poetry. You are a tragic beauty.
You are sensitive and caring, and you don't take insults well. You don't smile much, but when you do, you really mean it.
People like to be around you because you are a calming influence. You have an appreciation for all things beautiful, and you probably have some potted plants. You also most likely own a cat.
You like Sundays and hot tea. You will spend your entire life yearning for quiet beauty, which is a rarity in this world, so you read a lot.
Everyone you know thinks you're "nice."
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| You knew this right? |
| 02.20.04 (8:05 pm) |
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You're One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest!
by Ken Kesey
You're crazy. This has led people to attempt to confine you to a safe
place so that you don't pose a danger to yourself or others. You feel like you pose a
great danger to the man (or maybe the woman) or whatever else is keeping you down. But
most of the time, you just end up being observed. Were you crazy before you were
confined?
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
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| Like I Don't Have Other Things To Worry About |
| 02.20.04 (6:47 pm) |
Medical mysteries, bizarre cases
New book chronicles rare and odd ailments of human body, mind
By Amy Cox
CNN
Friday, February 20, 2004 Posted: 12:54 PM EST (1754 GMT)
[i]-- Jumping Frenchmen of Maine, Alice-in-Wonderland syndrome, wandering spleen. [/i]
They might sound like the names of the latest rock bands, but they're actually extremely rare and bizarre diseases and disorders that few people even know exist.
Author Nancy Butcher explores these and other odd ailments in "The Strange Case of the Walking Corpse," a new book chronicling some of the most strange and disturbing cases of what can go wrong with the human body and mind.
"I think like a lot of people, I've always been interested in really, really strange diseases." Butcher said. "I thought about becoming a doctor myself but decided it was too real and gruesome for me. But I've always been fascinated by weird symptoms and peculiar things people do to cure themselves or others."
Butcher said she had been collecting tales of strange medical mysteries for years, but the disorder the book is named after is what really spurred her to organize her research.
Dr. Jules Cotard is credited with first describing, in the late 1800s, the "[u][i]walking corpse[/i][/u]" psychiatric disorder. In this, deluded patients think they have lost body parts or their souls, and often believe they have died. Also called Cotard's syndrome, the mental disease has been found in people with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.
Another bizarre mental disorder Butcher describes is the [u][i]Alice-in-Wonderland syndrome[/i][/u], in which a patient's sense of time, space and body image are distorted. People may appear tiny or patients may feel that part of their body shape or size has been altered.
Being extremely startled by an unexpected noise or sight is the main characteristic of the disorder with the peculiar name of [u][i]Jumping Frenchmen of Maine[/i][/u].
It's not just bolting when someone sneaks up behind you, explains Butcher. Patients with the disorder flail their arms, cry out and repeat words. First identified in some of Maine's lumberjacks of French-Canadian origin, the odd reflex has been identified in other parts of the world, too.
Butcher said strange and gruesome elements have always fascinated people. Reading or watching TV shows on these topics can satisfy curiosity at a safe distance from the actual horrors of disease.
"I think a little bit of smugness is involved. There's this feeling of 'These people have these horrible conditions and I don't,'" she said. "It's like watching a car wreck. It's gross and disgusting but it's not happening to you.
"And the extremes -- the really gross diseases, the really disgusting sores ... it's the same as the fascination with crazy freak shows on TV: they're grossly compelling."
Although the book is full of strange medical minutiae and odd cases, Butcher said she didn't want to trivialize the people who have these disorders.
"I never want anyone who has any of these diseases to look at this and think they're being made fun of," she said. "There is a certain freakish, fascinating, and even funny aspect to the diseases, but for the most part, they're not. They are just fascinating because they're so rare, they're so extreme and the symptoms are nothing like anybody's ever heard before."
But sometimes the rare and unusual make headlines. The deadly Ebola virus was a relatively unknown disease until an outbreak in parts of Africa in the 1990s. And the uncommon mad cow disease in humans -- formally known as variant Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease -- is practically a household word.
Advances in medicine and biotechnology are sure to keep bringing intriguing advances and strange conditions to the fore, Butcher said.
Teeth grown in a petri dish from stem cells may someday replace dentures and implants, Butcher writes. And scientists are studying natural limb regeneration for humans, trying to copy the salamander's ability. Even the blood moving through our bodies may one day be generated artificially.
"So I think the future looks as equally fascinating and disgusting as the past," she said.
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| Just Ignore this, I wrote it before I passed my test. Read it next Wed. after my final. |
| 02.20.04 (5:55 pm) |
Argh. Stop reading right now if you are going to take this diatribe as the
way I think of myself/life, the Universe and everything everytime all the
time.
Right now sucks.
I bumped a brand new Corvette today with my 10 year old SUV. This afternoon
I have to listen to a recording of myself and tomorrow I have another test
for work. Anything below an 85 and I am on probation. My house is dirty,
my boyfriend is going hunting this weekend and my cat is acting weird.
What the hell happened to my life?
Where did my plans go? My expectations and dreams? My waistline?
It's as if I am looking into an abyss. A great big you're going to lose
your job and therefor any chance of ever getting TiVo and wireless cable
installed in your house, abyss.
Speaking of TiVo and wireless cable, the boyfriend likes to hunt, I like to
surf the net, read books and watch cheesy movies/reality shows. We all have
our hobbies. Screw you and the horse you rode in on if you don't like mine.
I don't make fun of you when you're at Chili's, swirling your wine around in
your mouth, sniffing it and commenting on its aroma. I should, because it's
Chili's, but I don't.
I am beginning to think I should have been born to a time when women's roles
were all laid out for them. Barefoot and pregnant making supper and staying
home 24/7 while someone else worries about a career. It's uncivilized, I
know. I'm just having trouble, "working." I constantly forget things, hit
something with my car, or freak out over the littlest things - basically, I
suck and need to be watched. Constantly.
...and before anyone calls me out on that, I am working diligently to
improve my situation at work. At night I study, I go to work an hour early
to review with my mentors and leave 30 minutes late.
...and yeah, I would hate to be stuck in some sort of weird time warp where
men were patting me on the ass and calling me sugar, as I got them beer
and deferred to their judgement.
::grumble, grumble::
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| Unghhhhhhh... |
| 02.18.04 (8:05 pm) |
Lisa should have gone on this evening. My heart breaks for her and Brie....
I guess what's his name had the hunk factor and the chick had looks and a decent - though underdeveloped voice... She sounded better during the second half of her song tonight than she did last night.
I thihnk I am going to go take a tums.
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| There is a reason god said something about no false Idols. |
| 02.18.04 (6:27 pm) |
Jesus Christ who let these people pick their songs?
One word.
BAD.
I felt really bad for the first two, matt(?) and Brie, compared to the rest
of them they were fabulous. Okay, so the red head and the girl at the end
were good too, they performed and sang. Interesting concept.
I don't understand the judges love of the Hawaiin waitress. She does sound
a bit like Laryn Hill, but, she didn't stay on key too well and performance
wise she gave nothing. It's seems to e one of those times the judges are
being easy on someone because they liked a previous performance - let's get
real. Judge them on their overall performance!
Anyway, that's all I have to say about that. I have no idea who America will
vote for. If it were up to me Brie and the big guy would go - overall I
have enjoyed them most. If it were based on last night's performance only -
it would be red and Last Girl. If there is a loving God, She Bangs guy
would get a wild card and go on to be the next idol - but I 'm not holding
my breath.
(Oh yeah, how many from last weeks show are bitching and moaning that they
got in the "good" group right now?)
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| INFERNO! |
| 02.18.04 (6:26 pm) |
Turn the heat up. My least favorite chick Trishelle is out of the game! It
seems the only thing she can't swallow are chile's - did I say that?
Holly has now gone from my least favorite person to the top 5. She's
actually a pretty decent human being this time around. She was even cool
with Trish's skanky roommate! Unbelievable.
PunkJackMormon has declared Trishelle her hero - quelle surprise. that poor
child would have been better off staying at Brigham Young and not having
entered the Real World at all. I suppose she has fans out there somewhere,
I for one never want to meet them.
Coral. What's there to say? She's one loud-mouthed bitch. But it really,
really, works for her - and, if on the upside, it gets rid of Julie in the
process. You go girl! (Real Worlders are my team remember? It's hard not
liking the majority of people on your team...)
No one else really stuck out in this eppy for me. Big yawns for the rest of
the cast. Even my Timmy bored me to tears - time to tear things up!
Someone ask Veronica if she's good for anything besides bitching? Have any
number of people go up to the Paris cast of Real world and ask them who
exactly they are and why they are there anyway. How about Syrus calling
Johnny Mosely and telling him to get his high as a kite butt down to be
master of ceremonies? Somebody DO SOMETHING!
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| Surreal Life, Surreal Nudity |
| 02.16.04 (11:05 am) |
Last night's Surreal World was hands down the funniest thing I've seen on television in ages. I can't remeber the last time I have laughed so hard and so loud.
Ron Jeremy to Vince Neil - "You've stayed in touch with everyone from the last show?" Neil nods his head. Jeremy questions, "even Cory?" Vince gives. He has that [i]HELL NO [/i]look written all over his face.
Tammy Faye doesn't like looking at nude men - can you blame her? Did you see those guys? ...and Rob was the only one who stayed fully cothed. What a man of mystery he is. As much of a jackass he is at least he has some priciples and sticks with them, unlike...
Okay,I know I've talked trash about Traci Bingham, but after last night's show, I must reveal the truth. I want to be her.
Now I know this is going to disappoint a few of you, make you think less of me, maybe even scold me, but it cannot be helped. I too want to look like a BRATZ! doll, marry a wealthy dude and pull the covers over his eyes. I want to get drunk out of my mind and tease men with my wiles! I want to be on a Baywatch reunion special!
I am a bit puzzled over some of her behaviour, riddle me this kids, what about showing your cooch instead of your boobies makes things better for your relationship in the long run? Who else thinks that Traci and her man got in a huge fight over the phone about nekkid romps with Ron Jeremy? ...and why, oh why, the bonding with Trishelle? Who by the way, should not be upset when the likes of a porn star stares at her nude breasts over cafeteria food and wine. Nothing more on (no pun intended) on Trishelle. I shall speak her name no more.
"Don't tell Tammy..." whatever...
Erik Estrada was his good ol self again, stopping at a Cracker barrel to feed his ego, oozing charma and schmoozing the blue hairs - who looked a bit uncertain about Vanilla Ice and his role in Madonna's sex book... Oh, how the mighty have fallen. ...and I am talking about you Madge, not ice. Our little Robbie even managed to redeem himself a bit by singing a bit of the song that made him famous and laughing about it afterwards. I would like to sit in on about ten years of therapy with this guy. It would be a hell of a ride!
Last but not least there was Ron. Ron, Ron, Ron. Loveable loser. Porn stars need love too. I hope you and Traci hit it after all.
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| How Low Will I Go? |
| 02.15.04 (3:17 pm) |
Not only have I added a couple of little dolls to my blog - I have learned how to MAKE THEM! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
Be afraid be very afraid.
Here is my first - yeah, I *MAY* have gone a little overboard...
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Then there are these gals - do you guys have a preference?
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I don't even want to get into the psychology of a 29 year old woman spending her Saturday night learning how to make these - and yes, I am sure I am projecting all over the place - do you know how hard it is to find dollmakers with quality goth bases? Seriously - when you want to make your doll as pale as you are, it's difficult.
Maybe I should look for British sites?
(Oh yeah, I'm not goth, btw, just naturally pale)
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| Style, Substance, Whatever. |
| 02.15.04 (3:09 pm) |
That's what went through my mind last night while watching =http://www.theordermovie.com/...this movie.
[i][b]THE ORDER[/b][/i]
[i]I trade to put a pic up but the powers of good and evil bode against it...[/i]
Ain't Heath Ledger hot for a priest? The movie is all over the place, starting with the accents and ending with the plot. Plot? What plot? Who edited this film? It had great potential and was just turned into another priest having sex with a parishoner fighting the powers of evil flick. Thank god I think priests are sexy.
No, I'm not Catholic. I'm a Southern Baptist, or was raised one anyway, if conservative Catholics are right, I am probably in a hell of a lot of trouble. Literally. Maybe Tammy Faye and I can spend some time in hell together - after this season's Surreal Life I think we would make great roomies.
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| From Something to Blog about. |
| 02.15.04 (2:38 pm) |
BODY ILLS AND SKILLS --
Nervous Habits?: tapping my feet
Are you double jointed?: ;)
Can you do weird things with your tongue?: I don't know, I love my tongue though. So I guess I have weird feelings for it...
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: Yup.
Can you blow spit bubbles?: No, but give me a bottle of dishwashing liquid and watch me go. ..
Can you cross your eyes?: Yes
Tattoos?: That little guy from Fantasy ISland
Piercings?: Sad old ears.
Do you make your bed daily?: Yes.
-- WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU --
Kissed?: my cat
Hugged?: cat
Talked to?: you guessed it, the cat
Went on a date with?: The BF
Laughed with?: BF
Hung out with?: co-workers.
-- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
--Took a shower?: Last night.
Cried?: can't remember
Talked on the phone?: A couple of hours ago.
Read a book?: Friday.
Punched Someone?: In a joking way? couple of days ago. For real?
Never.
-- CLOTHES --
Which shoe goes on first?: Right
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: No.
On average, how much money do you carry with you: Not much - plastic baby.
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: I don't.
Favorite Piece of Clothing: Any bra that fits.
Pajamas: You people are so Victorian.
-- FOOD --
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: cut.
Have you ever eaten Spam?: Spam and eggs.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Vanilla
How many cereals in your cabinet?: 0
What's your favorite beverage?: water.
What's your favarite resturant? Otilias, Taipei.
Do you cook?: nope
-- GROOMING --
How often do you brush your teeth?: 2-3 times a day
How often do you shower/bathe?: daily
How long does your shower last?: 15-20 mins.
Hair drying method: Air.
Do you paint your nails?: au naturel baby!
-- MANNERS --
Do you swear?: Shit, yeah.
Do you ever spit?: no spitting!
-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --
Animal: Cats
Food: Mexican
Month: September
Day: Saturday
Cartoon: X-men
Shoe Brand: Dansko
Subject in school: History
Color: Purple, Blue, Red
Sport: scrabble
TV show: American Idol, Surreal Life.
Thing to do in Spring: breathe
Thing To Do In The Summer: breathing's nice
Thing To Do In Autumn: I like to breathe.
Thing To Do In The Winter: Breathing by a fire.
-- IN AND AROUND --
The CD Player: QAF soundtrack
Person you talk to on the phone: My dad.
Ever taken a cab?: Yes and it always ends up odd.
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: Narcissist.
What color is your bedroom?: White with different colored flowers.
Do you use an alarm clock?: Yes, or I'd never wake up.
Window seat or aisle?: Motion sickness dictates. In a car - window. On a bus aisle.
-- LA LA LAND --
What's your sleeping position?: On right side.
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: Hell yeah, what do you think the a/c is for.
Do you snore?: Probably - but I am not as loud as him.
Do you sleepwalk?: Been known to.
Do you talk in your sleep?: Sometimes.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animals?: no
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: Yes.
-- WHICH IS BETTER --
Coke or Pepsi?: Dr. Pepper
One pillow or two?: Two.
Deaf or blind?: Blind.
Pools or hot tubs?: hot tub.
Blondes or brunettes?: redheads dude.
TV or radio?: TV
tic tacs or Certs?: certs
Tall or Short?: tall.
Sunrise or Sunset?: rise.
Hamburger or Cheeseburger?: Cheeseburger!
Morning or night?: Night!
Sports or news?: News is depressing, sports I don't care too much about.
Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?: Christmas Eve.
Cake or ice cream? Uhm, they aren't served together?
Spearmint or Peppermint?: Spear
Bath or shower?: Shower in a hurry, bath when I have time.
Book or Movie?: Both.
Green or Red apples?: Green.
-- THE FUTURE --
Where do you see yourself in ten years?: Dude, let's slow down how about tomorrow?
Who are you going to be married to?: Check out the above answers, but I think it is illegal to marry a cat in Texas.
How many kids?: How many for what? To stuff in a phone booth? Does it take to screw in a lightbulb? You will have to be more specific.
Your profession: Heiress or park ranger. Whichever has the better standard of living.
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 02.15.04 (8:38 am) |
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- Dragon:: Fierce
- Molecule:: tiny
- Tire:: flat
- Mighty:: Aphrodite
- Octane:: High
- Troll:: Ghosts of Jealousies
- Atmosphere:: nitrogen
- Guide:: Hitchhikers
- Leash:: kitty
- Dustmite:: flesheater
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| More LOtR's silliness |
| 02.14.04 (5:20 pm) |
Just click on one of the links to go to the site. These chicks (?) are funny...
Elrond's my fancy!
What's your fancy? Click here and tell the world!
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| '03's best! |
| 02.13.04 (10:07 pm) |
Well, according to Alasdair anyway. He's the one in the shades.=http://www.posterpop.com/merc... target=_blank [image]Al+band.bmp[/image]
I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date...
It must be that time of year again (well, to be honest, it's over a month past that time of year), the time of year when I egotistically presume that you might - just - be interested in my opinion as to what the best CDs of the past year were. Or rather, what my favourite CDs of the year were; it's much the same thing as far as I'm concerned (most of you have had one of these from me before - if not, well, umm, now you have). In the process, I'll probably continue to pretend that I have fiercely independent opinions free of any influence from the marketing machines of the major labels that threaten to subsume all living music into their insatiable maw (hmm, will that do for this year's weirdly florid metaphor?). And if you believe that...
I will freely admit that, after 2 and a half years away from radio, I'm not really quite as plugged in to the musical underground as I used to be. Fourteen years worth of running a particularly eclectic radio show (even by the standards of university radio stations) can't be replaced that easily. So while I do my best to keep up, I'm just not as clued in as I used to be. I suppose that this probably strikes a note of mildly wistful regret, but - as most of you know - recent events have provided me with more than ample compensation in other areas, so there's not much point in risking any karma on a complaint about something that - in the grand scheme of things - isn't that important anyway. And I imagine that this annual list will keep going for a few years yet....
But hey, enough of my yakkin... Waddya say - let's boogie!
SONG OF THE YEAR:
Hurt - Johnny Cash. Perhaps alone amongst his peers, Cash remained creatively important almost up to the moment he died, even when covering other people's songs. I doubt that there's really anything I can say about this song that other people haven't already said, but all you really need to know is that Cash somehow transformed a Nine Inch Nails song about drug abuse into an impossibly moving song about old age and death.
What have I become, my sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes away in the end.
And you could have it all, my empire of dirt
I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
A purely irrational impulse makes me think he was trying to tell June Carter how much he regretted everything he'd ever put her through. A less irrational impulse tells me that she didn't really care in the end; she loved him too much. A very certain impulse tells me that it must have destroyed him when she died a couple of months before he did. And knowing that makes the song almost unbearingly poignant.
SPECIAL AWARD FOR SILLIEST USE OF SELF-INDULGENT 6th FORM (YEAR 12/12TH GRADE) POETRY BY TORTURED WANNABE GOTHS:
My Elixir; My Poison - Meanwhile Back in Communist Russia...
"There is no mystery to this: with thorns, needles, razor-blades, i am master of my own art. triple incision: the translucent slivers flake like fish scales. One thousand mirrors turn in empty space. Nothing can stop me now: not even the smallest bead of blood can seep."
And there's nine other songs just like that one...
For God's sake, someone put me out of her misery.
RUNNER-UPS & NEAR-MISSES:
Fingers Crossed - Architecture in Helsinki
Recorded in a couple of suburban Melbourne bedsits, the only adjective that comes to mind with this CD is 'twee'. But twee needn't mean bad, or even overly cutesy; after all, think of how much of Pet Sounds (that's a Beach Boys album, but you knew that, right?) is 'twee'. And if Architecture in Helsinki's songwriters aren't in Brian Wilson's league, in this case, 'twee' is a synonym for 'charming.
De-loused in the Comatorium - The Mars Volta
Prog is back! Concept Albums! Impossibly complicated twiddly bits! Songs over 8 minutes long! Impenetrably dense plots! It's all here! The Mars Volta are brilliant musicians, and De-loused has some fantastic stretches, but a concept album about someone experiencing hallucinations while in a coma resulting from a failed suicide attempt - and who decides to die when he wakes up - just isn't where I want to be. I'm not that angsty anymore. But tortured 16 year old boys will love it.
AND THE TOP 5....
5) Absolution - Muse: Conclusive proof that when it comes to over-the-top excess, no one succeeds like the British. At least not when you need to wedge your tongue somewhere in your cheek. Led Zeppelin, Queen, Muse - who do the Americans have who can begin to compare? Alright, so this CD's probably 10-15 minutes too long, but it's so glorious for the first 15 minutes that I can forgive them a bit of 2nd half drag.
And 'Stockholm Syndrome' rocks. Hard.
4) Speakerboxxx/The Love Below - Outkast: So hip hop finally reaches my top 5 list. Or does it? The thing is, 'The Love Below' - the 2nd of the 2 CDs in this double album - is an indispensible thing of genius, the missing link between hip-hop, Coltrane, Miles Davis, Prince, George Clinton and Barry White, the apotheosis of what we sometimes euphemistically term 'urban music' when we really mean 'Black American music'. But Speakerboxxx is merely an above-average rap album. Pity, that.
3) Elephant - the White Stripes: Two years ago (he writes rather smugly), I wrote in this annual review that of all of the 'back to basics' rock bands who rather inexplicably lumped together - the White Stripes, the Strokes, BRMC, etc - the only one I thought had any real staying power, had any chance of impressing me in the long haul, were the White Stripes. Given the near-vanishing act of the second Strokes CD, can I give myself an award now? This is a great album, and 'Seven Nation Army' is a fantastic song. 'nuff said.
2) World Without Tears - Lucinda Williams: Simple, aching, beautiful, and sometimes even erotic, World Without Tears might actually be the conclusive proof I've been looking for that Neil Young's towering Tonight's the Night is the single most important influence on alt.country. In 'Ventura', it's about as explicit as it gets: 'Take the long way home / so I can ride around / Put Neil Young on / and turn up the sound. Drive up the coastline / maybe Ventura / Watch the waves make signs / out of the water'. Of course, I really, really like Tonight's the Night, so I really, really like World Without Tears. Proof positive that at least some creatively-vital 49 year old women are still getting some record company support - even if it's only when they're on the same record label as mortally ill septuagenarian legends (see 'song of the year', above).
ALBUM OF THE YEAR:
Electric Version - The New Pornographers: This is, quite possibly, the worst band name of any band I've ever encountered. It's even worse than some of the bands _I've_ been in. It's even worse than "Meanwhile Back in Communist Russia..." But who cares? This CD is completely redeemed by the glorious sense of unadulterated fun. The melodies and harmonies are fantastic, the song names are fantastic, and the sheer inventiveness of the arrangements would have raised this to near the top of the pack in any year. It's, well, fantastic (have I said that I think it's fantastic yet? I have? Fantastic). If you can listen to "Chump Change" without bopping your head, you have no soul. And most magnificently of all, "The New Face of Zero and One" appears to be nothing less than an Adam and the Ants tribute. No, really...
But guys (and girl - for Neko Case hides within), for God's sake consider doing something about that band name
See you next year...
Alasdair
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| Lonliness |
| 02.13.04 (9:30 pm) |
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most.
What Emotion Dominates you?
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| Reality |
| 02.13.04 (6:15 am) |
Had a job quiz yesterday. Made an uacceptable grade. 76. I am on probation. If I don't make 85 or better on the next two exams - I lose the job.
Did not make for an exciting night on the town. I feel like a huge loser.
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| Fantasy |
| 02.13.04 (6:13 am) |
Reality updates
RW/RR Inferno. I will not speak its name again but it went off on the Miz,
Coral and some other chick at a bar and can't understand why it was put on
the chopping block this week. Cry me a river.
RR's are ahead - as usual. I'm divided. I love me some Timmy but the rest
of them I can live without. I am also having difficulties with Timmie's
fondness for Hollybandageonfaceisdistr acting. She is a great player, but
what a harpy - of course, there is always the possibility she will swoop
down on Veronica, so she must stick around. That's why RW's IT can't beat
her.
Onto American Idol - I only wish I had posted before last night. You would
then have proof of my psychic abilities. The top 3? My top 3. The top
two? My top two. there really hasn't been this much talent on the show in
a long time. Fantascia is freakin' amazing she's a little Macy Gray a
little Lady Day and a lot of herself. I can't wait to see how she does
later on. The sixteen year old has some voice - and good stage prescence
too. I hope the experience she gets from the show helps her career.
Erskine really disappointed me. ...and who knew Randy Jackson was with
Journey? Bizarre stuff. Jennifer sounded horrible on Imageine - I don't
know what the audience was thinking with their feedback and poor Marque - he
really needs BROADWAY! This whole Idol thing isn't for him, it's in the way
he walks. Don't be a pop star be an artist darling. Mmmm, what else, I
think the blonde beauty who sang the jazz song's biggest problem is that her
potential has pretty much been reached. She should join Marque and try to
get a spot in the chorus.
SURVIVOR!
AAAAAAH! I have to miss it due to pre-Valentine celebratory events! You
can be sure I will be all over the internet this weekend getting a rundown
on the show. Please god oh please one of the Rob's, Jenna, Jerri or Rich go
home!
(I did see the end of Survivor and how sad is that?)
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| Surreal Life, It's only episode 4? |
| 02.09.04 (6:11 pm) |
Is Traci Bingham still engaged?
What in the world was going on last night. One minute Tammy Faye is signing
books, the next Traci's dress is over her head.
It also seems Ms. Bingham is looking for a daddy. Now, finacee boy is cute
- but her atttachment to Ron Jeremy and former status as Bill Mahr's arm
jewelry leads me to believe a good few years in therapy would help.
Then there is Trishelle. Trishelle Trishelle, Trishelle... Andy Dick - you
needed a celebrity to invite so he's who you thought of. I think Mr. Dick
has your number (there's a joke in there someplace isn't there?). It was
surreal watching Ron Jeremy walk him out of the house and have him talking
trash about Trish. I guess that's why they call it the surreal world...
Back to Tammy Faye for a minute, these people were surprised at the people
who showed up at her book signing? She had a talk show with Jm J. Bullock
fer Chrissakes - which was hilarious by the way.
Ice Baby was a jerk yet again this evening, albeit a righteous one for not
letting the skank (how many times can I write Trishelle in one post?) kiss
him. He seems to be one of the few who realized all this was going to be
televised later. He also held his tongue when Rick James talked about his
photo. I think Rick may have found another spiritual level while he was
cranked up on all those drugs - being Ice's idol, and telling him, "that
face will never change," was almost messianic. Save your self Ice, listen
to Rick, accept yourelf, come to peace.
How does Ron Jeremy know all these people anyway? You would think that
Hollywood was Babylon... Oh wait, nevermind.
The previews for next week's show are as always titillating, in the true
Janet Jackson sense of the word. A nudist colony, Vince Neil, and what do
you want to bet Trish and Traci take their shirts off?
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| Reality TV Fans Only! |
| 02.08.04 (8:19 pm) |
Hey guys, I'm pimping another site! It's a Reality TV forum called the =http://forums.delphiforums.co...Reality Royals. Click on the link and join in the conversations. They're hosted by delphi so if you're already a member there it should be easy. If you're not a member post as a guest - maybe you'll decide to stay a while!
Thanks!
End of Pimp.
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 02.08.04 (9:13 am) |
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- Identity:: movie
- Reveal:: your identity
- Live:: the band
- Attitude:: Patty La Belle
- Night:: Day
- Nevada:: Vegas
- Weekend:: lost
- Write:: wrong
- Friend:: Melissa
- Seventeen:: magazine
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| Bit o' Fluff |
| 02.07.04 (6:12 pm) |
Reds are physical and sexual. They love expressing
themselves through their sensuality and their
physical bodies. They live their lives in the
here-and-now with zest, strength, courage and
self-confidence.
What Is Your True Aura Colour?
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| A Reading |
| 02.07.04 (11:10 am) |
There comes a time in your life when you finally get it...
When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new prospective.
This is your awakening.
You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or someone, to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren't always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
So you begin making your way through the "reality of today" rather than holding out for the "promise of tomorrow." You realize that much of who you are, and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a result of all the social conditioning you've received over the course of a lifetime. And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about:
· how you should look and how much you should weigh
· what you should wear and where you should shop
· where you should live or what type of car your should drive
· who you should sleep with and how you should behave
· who you should marry and why you should stay
· the importance of having children or what you owe your family
Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really believe in. And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with.
You accept the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK... they are entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 Or a perfect human being for that matter. So you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head or agonizing over how you compare. And you take a long look at yourself in the mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.
And, you stop maneuvering through life merely as a consumer hungry for your next fix, a new dress, another pair of shoes or looks of approval and admiration from family, friends or even strangers who pass by. Then you discover that it is truly in giving that we receive and that the joy and abundance you seek grows out of the giving. And you recognize the importance of creating and contributing rather than obtaining and accumulating.
And you give thanks for the simple things you've been blessed with; things that millions of people upon the face of the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed and the freedom to pursue your own dreams.
And then you begin to love and to care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-destructive behaviors including participating in dysfunctional relationships. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and exercising. And because you've learned that fatigue drains the spirit and creates doubt and fear, you give yourself permission to rest. And just as food is fuel for the body, laughter is fuel for the spirit and so you make it a point to create time for play.
Then you learn about love and relationships, how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally and that not everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it's not always about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place blame for the things that were done to you or weren't done for you. And you learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions it spawns; anger, jealousy and resentment.
You learn how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with confidence and grace.. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake.
Then you learn to distinguish between guilt,
and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You learn that you don't know all the answers,
it's not your job to save the world
and tha! t sometimes you just need to Let Go.
Moreover, you learn to look at people as they really are and not as you would want them to be, and you are careful not to project your neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be, more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships and that that not everyone can always love you the way you would want them to. So you stop appraising your worth by the measure of love you are given. And suddenly you realize that it's wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet "your" standards and expectations. You learn that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without conditions or limitations. And you learn what it means to love. So you stop trying to control people, situations an! d outcomes. You learn that alone does not mean lonely and you begin to discover the joy of spending time with yourself and on yourself. Then you discover the greatest and most fulfilling love you will ever know. Self Love. And so, it comes to pass that through understanding your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.
Moving along, you begin to avoid Toxic people and conversations. And you stop wasting time and energy rehashing your situation with family and friends. You learn that talk doesn't change things and that unrequited wishes can only serve to keep you trapped in the past. So, you stop lamenting over what could or should have been and you make a decision to leave the past behind. Then you begin to invest your time and energy to affect positive change. You take a personal inventory of all your strengths and weaknesses and the areas you need to improve in order to move ahead. You set your goals and map out a plan of action to see things through.
You learn that life isn't always fair and you don't always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God... but merely a random act of fate.
And you stop looking for guarantees because you've learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you'll learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time FEAR itself. So you learn to step right into and through your fears because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophesy and you learn to go after what you want and not to squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending doom.
Then, YOU LEARN ABOUT MONEY
... the personal power and independence it brings and the options it creates. And you recognize the necessity to create your own personal wealth. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. Then a sense of power is born of self-reliance. And you live with honor and integrity because you know that these principles are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build your life. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful opportunity and exciting possibility. Then you hang a wind chime outside your window to remind yourself what beauty there is in Simplicity .
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you TAKE a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.
A word about the Power of Prayer
: In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed not for the answers to my prayers or for material things but for my "God" to help me find the strength, confidence and courage to persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.
Remember this: "You are an expression of the almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you. Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you."
My "God" has never failed me.
~By Sonny Carroll~
Copyright © 1999 Sonny Carroll All Rights Reserved
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| Are you A BBC American? |
| 02.06.04 (6:41 pm) |
BBC American
You guys ever see those, “I’m a =http://www.bbcamerica.com/bbc...BBC American” commercials? For those of you who’ve not, let me run one down.
Focus in on trendy, smug, American pig sitting in some coffee shop or overstuffed lounge chair.
Said pig then says something along the lines of, “The British are so much superior than we Americans.” You too should pick yourself up out of the primordial ooze of American pop culture and become a BBC American.”
Fade out.
That’s all really, [i]=http://www.minki.net/aybs/Are You Being Served[/i], [i]=http://www.bbcamerica.com/gen...My Hero[/i] and [i]=http://ourworld.compuserve.co...Jonathan Creek[/i] are miles above the twaddle US networks put [i]=http://www.everybodylovesray....out.[/i]
(Smelling the sarcasm yet?)
These three shows are reminiscent of, in this order, =http://www.geocities.com/clas...[i]Alice[/i] - in a department store, =http://epguides.com/GreatestA...[i]The Greatest American Hero[/i] and =http://www.tvtome.com/tvtome/...[i]Murder She Wrote[/i] albeit majicked up.
Yes, we borrow ideas from the Brits and vice versa. Some end up better than others but the Brits beat us out by airing our shows as is, instead of trying to make a, “British Version.” Examples being the disastrous Coupling and Red Dwarf – the US version ending up as HOMIES IN SPACE with, you guessed it, The Wayans.
The overpopulation of home decorating/demolishing programming is directly linked to the Brits influence over us. For whatever reason, these shows translate well in any country. It appears that the difference between good and bad taste is truly universal as is the secret wish to see others suffer on television.
You might be wondering if I am a BBC American. I must admit, I am, but I’m not quite the self-loathing wannabe the commercials would characterize me as. I am an equal opportunity tv junky. I watch as much bad British programming as I do American – I also have a penchant for wacky films from Denmark, but that’s beside the point. It takes a village folks. A running theme here at R. Kitty. It takes a village. The world would be a far less interesting place without the likes of Monty Python, WKRP in Cincinnatti and The Hospital?
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| Quirky Foreign Movie of the Week. |
| 02.06.04 (6:22 pm) |
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=http://www.akadot.com/reviews...AVALON.
Set in the not so distant future this film is about angst overload, virtual reality war games and the meaning of life. Thankfully, I caught a dubbed version of the flick, but I wonder as I always do in these cases if some things weren’t lost in translation. C’est la vie.
The first thing I suppose I must tell you is that I slept during the largest part of the movie. The premise is awesome - discontented youths escape their reality to rage illegal virtual war on one another. The visuals are nothing less than haunting in their bleakness, it was like walking into a conglomerate of =http://www.towerdistrictnews....Nighthawks and =http://www.awitness.org/guern...Guernica.
I’m not so sure I would have enjoyed the movie as much if I had to sit through the entire thing – yeah, that’s a weird thing to say, especially if you’re promoting a flick, but would the final scene be as stunning with too much foreshadowing? Not that I would know if there was any…
~fin~
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| Conversations on the bus and my mind wanders |
| 02.06.04 (6:10 pm) |
Politicking
On the bus this morning I listened to an anti-Bush diatribe. The guy is
convinced Bush is out in '05. I'm no fan, but I'm not convinced. Kerry is
no Clinton, Edwards is too Clinton and Clark, well - Clark just doesn't have
a snowball chance in hell.
I suppose I will vote for Kerry when it comes down to it. I've never been a
Bush supporter, and feel foolish and angry for believing the lies he and his
administration have fed us these last few years. I am hoping McCain will
run with Bush's National Guard 'mishap' and turn some more righties against
him. It's funny though, while the BF rails against Clinton for not serving,
when he found out the details about Bush he got really quiet. The silence
was deafening and his face turned to stone. Was it inner struggle? Not
wanting to admit he was wrong? Gas? Who knows. I just have a funny
feeling there are a lot more like the BF out there. "Do we stick to our
principles or do we do what's best for out pocketbooks?" That's just my
observation.
I could rail on about Bush sending our boys and girls into Iraq, Afghanistan
and wherever he decides to send them next, but I won't. The hypocrisy is
too blatant. So what if wealthy kids generally went into the National Guard
during those turbulent years - yeah, it may have been accepted in certain
circles but all us middle to lower class folks should be outraged - just as
many were during Vietnam. By the way - while all you folks out there try to
determine what socio-economic class you're in - the last time I checked,
American usually overshoot their category by at least one level. Me, I feel
middle class, but when you look at things, I come from a blue collar
background and have barely busted the lower-middle class in adulthood. Good
thing my better half has money.
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| Survivor Allstars Episode Deux |
| 02.06.04 (6:07 pm) |
Rudy, Rudy, Rudy.
It was in the cards man.
Despite an alliance with Rupert the oldest Survivor was voted off the Island
this week. When they lost the second immunity challenge they knew he had to
go. Rupert warmed our hearts by not voting for him, but let's face it - he
knew the girls and Ethan were voting the old guy out. He didn't have much
to lose except possibly some respect for himself and from the viewers.
Why isn't this team doing better anyway? They've got Rupert! They've got
Ethan! They've got, erm Jerri and Jenna - yeah, that's it, there cursed...
As you can tell I obviously haven't bothered to learn the tribes names yet.
Who can bother. Three is one too many if you ask me.
Team Rob is annoying. They keep winning so maybe these rejects have some
play left in them yet. Besides, Tom knew all the words to CCR's have you
ever seen the rain - that scores points in my book - as for the rest of them
- who were they again?
I find team nudie humourous. Hatch is walking around naked - Note that
Colby patted his naked ass after their secondplace finish in the Immunity
Challenge and thus far Lex is far less annoying than he was on his show. I
may have even grown to like him. You guys should check out his reviews for
previous Survivors. He's pretty funny.
Stiil, they all know each other, they know how to work the game and so far
it's been pretty boring. Richard the nudist makes us all yawn, we know who
the bitchy ones are (as they themselves know) and we know the ones targeted.
Big woo. I hope things turn around and get a little more interesting soon
or I will watch Tru Calling on Thursday instead of Survivor. My heart will
break, my boyfriend will celebrate - hey that rhymed.
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| Tonight's Idol Pick |
| 02.04.04 (8:32 pm) |
Umkaay, tonight I want Amy "pink hair" Adams to be the next Idol.
Love her.
Beautiful voice - quirky look - and pleasant person.
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| Inside the Blogsters Studio |
| 02.04.04 (6:22 pm) |
This is from Selina's blog - she's at Something to Blog about over in my links - check her out! Anyway, she took some questions from Inside the Actor's Studio, here are my answers.
What is your favorite word?
Muggles
What is your least favorite word?
No
What turns you on?
A good mind
What turns you off?
Sophmorish men
What sound do you love?
Bells tinkling
What sound do you hate?
stomach grumbling
What is your favorite curse word?
Fuck
What profession, other than yours would you like to attempt?
Writer
What profession would you not like to participate in?
The sex trade
If heaven exsists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
"We got you this time!."
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| American Idol Tryouts - I've given up on making any sense. |
| 02.04.04 (5:52 pm) |
Oh, boy. Skankeriffic model made it through another set of tryouts. WTH?
SHE DIDN'T EVEN SING! Grrrrr...
...and what about Scooter girl? Simon hit the nail on the head when he said
she didn't know if she was a great comedian with a good voice, or a mediocre
singer that was funny. She's just painful to watch.
The kids who forgot their lines made me sad. :( Not the adults but the 16
year olds. I know they need to be reminded of how important it is to know
their lines - but in light of model chick passing to the next level without
completing a line of her song... Grrrragain.
What was up with simon dogging the football player? I thought he did great!
He also has nice teeth. One of the funniest moments of the night was when
he hugged Seacrest. I thought Ryan's eyes would pop out.
Last but not least, there's ANGRYDIVACHICK. Now, I agree that she was being
disrespectful, but hello - it's American Idol. Simon is *the* most
disrespectful person on the planet. He gets away with it because he is,
"only teeling the truth." ANGRYDIVACHICK needs to take a few more pointers
from him before she lashes out again. For what it's worth, I think Simon is
right - she doesn't have the right look. If Wanda Sykes smiled less and
didn't have curly hair, she would still look more interesting than this
girl. I don't see her singing pop - I see her screeching something punk or
industrial. What she needs to do is go for the GOTHANGRYDIVACHICK thing. I
think she would have the market cornered.
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| Grrrrr. |
| 02.03.04 (8:32 pm) |
I am coming apart at the seems!
I MADE A B ON MY TEST!!! 85 is failing. I did a little better than that - not much.... AAAAAAHHHHHHH!
It's not like I'm type A or anything.
Like my job is depending on it - wait, IT IS!
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| Survivor Allstars |
| 02.02.04 (6:10 pm) |
Why does Richard Hatch have to be naked all the time?
No one wants to see that...
As for the rest of them. Well, who cares. They need to get rid of Hatch....
Ethan thinks that they would want to go to the end with a former winner because they would never give them the $$$$. Whatever - you don't get it
Ethan - people want MONEY, you got it and now it's their turn. NO way arae they gonna chance a sweetheart like you, especially at the end! Let's face it, I would give the money to Ethan before any of the women and most of the men - Rupert and Cody would be tought to beat. In fact, someone just give Colby the money now. I like him - he has nice teeth.
Jenna/Jerri - you guys have no chance. Everyone hates you both. I can't really blame them.
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| Miss Jackson |
| 02.02.04 (6:04 pm) |
Janet's nipple is HUGE here in Houston.
Seriously.
IT was *the* watercooler talk today at work.
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That is not a pasty, that is some sort of nipple ring. It was planned not a wardrobe malfunction and she might as well have kissed Beyonce during the National Anthem. Let's face it - once Madonna did Britney and Christina we'd long seen it all.
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| Listesses |
| 02.01.04 (8:16 pm) |
Superbowl
Houston gone mad
Why do stars go to the mall?
Atkins
Chocolate
Protein
Chocolate
SURVIVOR!
Sweeping
Laundry
Note taking
anxiety
Need carbs now.
chocolate
shave legs
egg salad
boiled eggs
poached eggs
Avalon
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| Getting it off my chest |
| 02.01.04 (8:13 pm) |
A'ight, so I know I take these people way too seriously but I caught an the preview of Real World/Road Rules Inferno this weekend and can I just say what the hell is wrong with these people?
Coral - SHE WAS BITTEN BY A SPIDER, yes people, that is what happens when you go into anaphylactic shock - people die from it, she may be a bitch, but I really don't think she would blow 200 K because she got "tired." ...and they didn't even visit her in the hospital afterwards! AAAAAHHHHHH!
The Miz - I like the Miz, but he is one dopey boy. MAybe one day he and Coral will give it up and hook up. He needs her as much as she needs him.
Trishelle - I take back anything nice I ever said about her, even if I was being backhanded at the time.
Veronica and the butch chick from Campus crawl - get over yourselves - I would rather listen to Sarah whine for another season than you two self aggrandizing.
Adam and Theo - whatever.
In other news - Mikey is on the inferno - I couldn't be happier, I just wish he wasn't a road ruler! I'm hoping Real World Kicks Ass and takes names this turn around.
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| U.M. |
| 02.01.04 (6:34 am) |
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- Ignore:: outerspace
- Death:: Endless
- Missy:: Elliott
- Ballet:: Oklahoma
- Guest:: Johnny Carson
- Campus:: crusade
- Lonely:: Only the
- Company:: Three's
- Helicopter:: M*A*S*H*
- Sterile:: cuckoo
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