†HAMLETâ€
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SHAKESPEARE
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†Opheliaâ€
There is a willow grows
ascaunt the brook,
That shows his hoar
leaves in the glassy stream.
Therewith fantastic garlands
did she make
Of crow-flowers, nettles,
daisies, and long purples,
That liberal shepherds give
a grosser name,
But our cold maids
do dead men's fingers call them.
There on the pendant
boughs her crownet weeds
Clamb'ring to hang,
an envious sliver broke,
When down her weedy
trophies and herself
Fell in the weeping brook.
Her clothes spread wide,
And mermaid-like
a while they bore her up;
Which time she chanted
snatches of old lauds,
As one incapable
of her own distress,
Or like a creature native
and indued unto that element.
But long it could not be
Till that her garments,
heavy with their drink,
Pulled the poor wretch
from her melodious lay
To muddy death.
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| AI Hawaii |
| 01.30.04 (6:42 pm) |
Okay, model chick has to go. She was beautiful - gorgeous - but not a
singer. Randy and Simon are pigs. :)
I wasn't terribly impressed with anyone last night. I thought the Fat
Chicks Rule girl was better on the intro with her ukele than she was in
front of the judges. Perhaps had she not tried a DIVA song.
What was with the guy in the Winnie the Pooh outfit? Crazy man. Crazy.
I did like the kid who was asleep outside when they found him. He did
afterall, wear his best church clothes for the outing.
I wish there was more for me to say. Don't really think that Hawaii has the
next American Idol.
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| Tamale Surprise Update - with links! |
| 01.28.04 (6:38 pm) |
After spending 9 or so years as an archaeologist and several of those years
in a zooarchaeology lab I have determined that the tooth is NOT feline. It is only a portion of a tooth, so some guesswork is going into my analysis.
But, I believe it to be one of three things.
A =http://www.alabastercove.com/...'possum.htmpossum.
A =http://www.backwoodsbound.com...Raccoon.
A (god forbid) =http://www.nwrc.usgs.gov/spec...Nutria.
Being from SE Oklahoma/Alabama/South Carolina areas, I doubt I am the first
in my family to ever eat coon or possum. In fact, I hold on to the hopes it
was one of these creatures. It soothes me a bit more than the alternative.
Have you ever seen a =http://www.nationaltrappers.c...Nutria? If you think possums are nasty - think again.
These water rodents are the foulest, skankiest, meanest creatures on the
planet. A quote from a family member goes something like this, "don't never
send a dog down a hole for a Nutria - it'll never come out." (Something
about "not your good dogs," followed but my mind was already spinning and I
didn't catch quite all the story.)
I have heard rumors that in Louisiana they are trying to promote Nutria as
a wild game animal. I know you can make anything into Gumbo - but dear lord.
I may have to get in touch with my =http://www.coonass.com/whycoo...coonass (read cajun) relatives and see
what the story is. There are few of them left and they don't spend a lot of
time with the rest of us - they probably fear being found out as =http://www.newadvent.org/cath...Huguenots
not =http://www.cajunculture.com/real Cajuns. Poseurs. Just because some drunk fell off the wagon
going through Louisiana and happened to have a French name - does not make their descendants
Cajun.
Anyway, I should probably be more alarmed about this than I am, but really, I eat raw fish and chicken embryos - how's that any better?
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| American Idol in California |
| 01.28.04 (6:19 pm) |
Who was that large man singing James Ingram?
He made me feel funny inside.
I also thought the kid who was the first guy to make it on the second day in
San Francisco was good, good as in having a chance to make the top 3 or win
good.
So was the 50's retro girl and - think back to Houston - the chick from San
Antonio who sang about a note and a half of Stormy weather. We'll see if
they bone it in LA.
Criticism?
Simon was a wee bit too mean to the young mother. No, she wasn't that good
- but she was mediocre - worse have sung at weddings and funerals.
As for the budding R&B star - it took me forever to figure out what song he
was trying to sing (all two notes of it). He had a bad attitude. Glad he's
gone.
The "cabaret" singer. How can she not know she is a cabaret singer. I know
she is a cabaret singer and I know zilch. I think she's good - but not
"POP" music good.
The kid from Hong Kong at the end - She bangs! OMG - I wish they had let
him through if only for my entertainment. That guy had schutzpah!
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| Bad News |
| 01.27.04 (8:31 pm) |
It seems I just found some sort of predator tooth in what was supposed to be my beef tamale.
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| Working Girl Blues |
| 01.26.04 (5:53 pm) |
Here I am e-mailing myself at lunch during my second week of training for
the new job.
Yes, I am that bored. The net Nazi's here are pretty gruesome so I can only
check mail before/after work or during breaks. Not only that, browsing is
*supposed* to be used for the intranet only, but going to the occasional
News or Business site is allowed, if frowned upon.
...so how am I going to convince my team leader that the survivor website is
News?
Regardless, at least I have a job, insurance and so forth. Couldn't say
that a month ago could I?
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| Surreal Life, Season 2, Episode Three |
| 01.26.04 (5:50 pm) |
The Surreal Life, Episode Three.
::sigh::
Ron Jeremy directing Tammy Faye Baker - who would have thought, have dreamed
- or would that be a nightmare? I'm not sure.
The gang wore me out last night.
Jeremy has an education degree? Why don't you ever hear about that?
...and coming from a fundy background I could tell ya what Tammy Faye's
reaction to the psychic was going to be... Speaking of the psychic,
shouldn't they have all gone into it knowing that it was just a silly
parlour game for them? Trash, er Trishelle freaked out as did Vanilla Ice,
while his heart was in the right place he didn't have to throw a tantrum.
Missed the drunkfest I'm afraid. Incoming call distracted me. You will all
be happy to know that R. Kitty's little sister is doing well and is as fat
as a pig. That happens when you feed little animals powdered milk and
supplements with their meals. ...and you guys think I'm a crazy cat lady?
Getting bback to the Surreal World, TPTB decide the crew needs to put on a
children's show. Uh huh. Now, I do not doubt Mr. Jeremy's love of
children, but if I were told my kid (or cat) was going to be watching a
production he was involved with? Yeah, there would be considerable concern
on my part. Same goes for Tammy Faye, Trishelle, Ice Ice Baby and Ms.
Bingham.
3 Points.
#1. Who thought that the women's costumes were AT ALL appropriate for
little kids? A Britney or Motley Crue video maybe...
*note the porn star had nothing to do with the costuming
#2. Since when has BIZATCH been used in kids shows?
*note porn star had nothing to do with script selection
#3. If Trishelle is the best actress/actor on set, what does this tell you
about Traci, "I was raised in the theatre, take things very seriously, blah,
blah, blah..." Bingham?
*eh, Estrada did okay, but he's a grown up...
In between there is a bunch of bitching and moaning and adverts for next
week's Porn Bar-b-que. Spoiler,,,,,,,Tammy Faye is not happy with the
nakedness... nakidity? ...nekkidness? Whatever.
Nudity. That's the word I am looking for.
Nudity.
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| Immaturity |
| 01.25.04 (5:19 pm) |
I've been a bit obsessed with my significant other's view of me as immature.
After thinking about it, I've realized he is right.
I love comic books and kittens, reality tv, daydreaming, and the internet. I get carried away with my favorite characters from books, tv and movies. I still get crushes on tv cops and the big dumb guy in the show. I'd rather eat a good deli sandwhich than a hot meal. Injustice makes me sad, glitter and chocolate make me happy. All I really need in this world is a place to lay my head and a job to pay the bills, the future is both near and distant. I plan for it, but I'm more about what's going on in the here and now.
I'm not big on keeping up with the Jones's or the latest trends. My closet isn't full of power suits and work out clothes. I still relate better to those a lot younger and a lot older than myself. I would rather spend money on a vacation than invest it in land. I can't find the time to be a music snob or anything else. Whatever floats your boat. That's what I say.
I'm tired. I'm going to take a nap - and maybe daydream a bit.
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| the Bus. |
| 01.25.04 (4:44 pm) |
So, it’s the end of my first week at work and I’m taking the last transfer to my park and ride station. The bus is PACKED. There had to be at least twenty of us standing up in the aisle – for those of you not in Houston this is unheard of – people are more into pickups than public transportation. I was tired but glad to be on my way home.
Then it happened. The smell. Stale urine and rancid whiskey. I sniffed again. Is it me? Surely not…
I saw him. He was one person in front of me. Was he homeless? A wino? Perhaps just having a bad day? Who knows. He looked and smelled like hell.
My first thought? “Poor guy…” Okay, my first thought was, “MAN YOU STINK!” Then I thought, “poor guy…”
Some lady in JC Penny coordinates and bad Avon drag was seated directly below him. She raised her eyebrows and covered her nose with her blouse. She looked like that English teacher that everyone hates but has to suffer through at least one semester in High School. You know the type – uptight, holier than thou, “Well I never,” kinda lady?
For some reason I found the whole scene very amusing.
The old guy was wiped out. He was virtually hanging from the guard rail and his breathing was raspy. The more comfortable he became the crazier snooty lady looked. It was just such a nice moment.
Skip forward ten minutes. Old stinky is making his way through the line of commuters to the back of the bus, then decides to return to his first position – restless, he walks to the middle of the bus. At times he tries to talk but it’s unintelligible.
With the occasional breeze, his scent permeates my nose and I look down at the bus floor to make sure that it is only stale urine I smell.
Arriving at the park and ride Stinky immediately tries to dash through the line and out of the bus (now obviously mentally ill, probably some sort of paranoia or panic disorder). There is a rustle, some look worried, others frightened and others, to my relief, look as if they are about to bust out laughing.
Out of nowhere a TINY little lady screams, “WAIT YOUR TURN!” She couldn’t have been 5 ft. tall. Wouldn’t even have been in my line of sight – and there she was teaching manners to stinky! Heh, it was a great moment for short people.
Stinky stopped and began to go with the flow.
Erm, a moral to this story? Well, I suppose there is some sort of brotherhood of man, you get what you expect, compassion bent somewhere – but really, I don’t think anyone was doing any in-depth thinking on that Friday afternoon.
Snooty lady, short lady and I got off the bus. I didn’t look back. I hope the old guy got to where he was going and that someone was there for him and I hope I remember I am lucky enough to have a place to go and someone is there for me.
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| Just a quiz before I go... |
| 01.25.04 (3:54 pm) |
Your wings are DRAGON wings. Massive and
covered in scales, they shimmer with strength
and magic. They are the most obvious display of
your power - though it runs equally throughout
your heart and mind. You are uncompromising and
grave, with a profound sense of justice. You
have firm ideas about what is right and what is
wrong and set out to fix what problems you can.
You realize that you are more capable of
dealing with life and evil than most, and as
such you see it as your responsibility to
protect those who cannot defend themselves. You
have existed since antiquity and as such you
are wise far beyond your years in this
lifetime. While you strive for fairness and
peace, if someone should steal from your cave
of treasure (though not all that glitters is
gold) or compromise the happiness of you or one
who is close to you - they have signed their
death warrant. You have a mighty vengeance and
will unleash it upon such people immediately
and mercilessly. Arguing with you is
useless...you rarely back down and are known
for holding firm in your beliefs. Sometimes you
feel intensely burdened with the troubles of
others...acting as a Guardian can get so
wearisome. But you never give up...you see it
as your life's mission. Often very introverted,
you can be so smart...it's scary. Such a
combination of intelligence, creativity, power,
beauty, and magic is often intimidating to
those around you - who are also unlikely to
understand you. Arrogant, proud, overserious,
and sometimes a bit greedy or obsessed with
whatever treasure you choose to pursue...you
have enchanted people for centuries, and will
continue to do so.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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...so true...
:P
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 01.25.04 (2:42 pm) |
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- Political:: Camp
- Concentration:: Camp
- Fish:: Trigger
- Lunacy:: the world
- Red:: hair
- Imply:: meaning
- Recognize:: face
- Sexist:: pig
- Commercial:: waste
- Stricken:: SARS
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| "I RAISE HELDSCALLA" |
| 01.25.04 (2:11 pm) |
My friend Alasdair wrote this. Very good he is...
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[b]I RAISE HELDSCALLA[/b]
[i]It was about 32:00 PM on a cold wet night in New Lhasa. But there was nothing new about the wet. It had been raining solidly for 8 weeks, a corrosive acidic rain that would eat away clothes, the flesh and even the bones of anyone stupid enough to step outside the arcology. Why anyone would have wanted to settle Bodhisattva was beyond Gayl's understanding; it was a small, dismal planet inhabited almost exclusively by a sect of dull ecstatic mystics dressed in luminous orange. It had no exports, few visitors and a gravity too weak for her liking. She had, after all been raised on Marathon (speak that name softly, she whispered silently to herself), and anything under .87 degrees made even her stomach turn somersaults. She would never had come here if it wasn't for Broux.
Take a flashback, Gayl; go back in time. Remember yourself near some unknown star in an orbit too close for comfort. If the cruiser pilot de-opaqued the walls, you would be instantly blinded. Cruisers shouldn't fly this close to stars; in theory the gravitational pull would be beyond the escape velocity of a ship this small. Your host doesn't seem to care about the theory. He's Broux, the Galactic Pot Healer. He swims the Empire selling and mending antiques - or so he claims, but you know better. You knew his secrets, (you_still_know, you remind yourself). You loved him once (maybe you still do). You know that hidden away in the cruiser is a Uniform of the Ministry of Internal Affairs; and you know he has the right to wear it.
Broux had brought three of you to his personal cruiser. There was you, Gayl VonDeshore, former employee of the Ministry of Security, who had once been paid to destroy men's souls - until the Purging had led you to exile from the singing shores of Marathon's seas. There was Kim Ki-Kyth, a half Sirian daughter of Old-Earth, who could kill an enemy by memory alone. And there was Tarn, the dancer, who had once beheld the rapture of the Snows of Azania, and had been forever changed.
Not for you the mundanity of life on a single planet, not for you the drudgery of the greater mass of the Empire's subjects. In a galaxy of infinite wonder, all three of you had seen things that the others could never imagine or believe. But Breaux could. Breaux believed it all, perhaps had even seen it all. And now he was asking you to find Heldscalla.
To be continued....
[LINE]
Unfortunately it wasn't. Alasdair seemed to have lost his muse - or perhaps he was more worried about finishing his dissertation. We'll never know...
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| Quiz, link is NOT SAFE FOR WORK |
| 01.24.04 (7:25 am) |
 Your Seduction Stye: "Au Natural"You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you. What Kind of Seducer Are You?
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| The Issues |
| 01.23.04 (9:33 pm) |
To my dismay, I took this little =http://www.votebyissue.org/pr...survey and found out I have much in common with Kucinech, Clark and (ICAN'TBELIEVEIAMPRINTING THIS) Sharpton.
That's it. I give up. I'm leaving the world of politics because I am obviously a nutbucket hell bent on taking this country down!
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| American Idolathon |
| 01.22.04 (6:14 pm) |
A'ight. You guys know I live for this kind of stuff. This year's American Idoll has the potential to be a disaster.
A disaster in an entertaining way, but a disaster.
We can start with "Scooter Girl." Once plagued by over-achievment and eating disorders she has now been reparented and entered the competition. I can't think of anything more therapeutic than the Idol machine for this young woman. She practically screams for attention - I predict much wailing and gnashing of teeth before the bloody end.
Sexy southern gals. Enough said. Which one will be the first to snatch a compatriot ball-headed? I can't wait.
Houston, dear lord. As a resident of the fair city I don't' know what to tell you all. I ride the bus with these freaks on a daily basis. My only hope is that the more talented of our citizens felt it beneath them to enter Idol. ::wishful thinking:: Well, at least none of them Scat.
Can't wait until next weeks eppy. We get to see LA. Please god, let LA keep it's freakiest city in the US image so Houstonians don't inherit it.
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| Job Training |
| 01.21.04 (5:28 pm) |
My first test is tomorrow.
Hold me, I'm scared.
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| In Dreams |
| 01.20.04 (8:15 pm) |
Last night I dreamed a dream of anxiety and sorrow. The emotions ran so deep and wild it was as if it actually happened, I relive them as I type.
I dreamed that my aunt begged me to love my cousin. "Love her, love her," she wailed, "she has no soul."
What the hell is that supposed to mean? What scared, scarred, part of my psyche came up with that?
I believe in dreams. They are that part of us that is revealed when we are at our most vulnerable. When we are asleep. They don't just represent the subconscious, they represent the here and now, future desires and past failures, our victories and defeats. Dreams are powerful, if you open yourself to them. Dream analysis doesn't necessarily need to be book-learned. If you search deep enough, ask yourself the right questions, pick apart the symbology you can interpret them, their meaning(s) to you.
I have a lot of thinking to do.
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| Episode 2, the Surreal World. |
| 01.19.04 (3:11 pm) |
Vanilla “Rob” Ice has a problem. What that problem is, well, that’s up for debate. Definite anger issues and lack of any ability to see a counterpoint to any situation are a start. He thinks his current gig on, The Surreal World, is going to make him appear more the artist than the pop candy rapper he once was. He thinks they are making him appear, Cheesy.” Rob, did ya not think when you signed on things might not be a little off?
1.The show’s run before, what did you think was going to happen?
2. When one says, they do not want to be all flash and image and no substance, one should not be tattooed, pierced and otherwise imitating every other skateboarder on the block.
3. You have children and that disturbs me.
4. The surreal world would not be the same without you.
Can't wait 'til next week.
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 01.18.04 (7:41 am) |
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- Berry:: berry good
- Fiendish:: elves
- Bar:: drunk
- Frank:: honest
- Bend:: er
- Fanatic:: Oz fans
- Belch:: burp
- Flagrant:: inflagranto
- Burden:: beast of
- Flimsy:: whimsy
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| Speaking of Gaiman |
| 01.17.04 (6:34 pm) |
I understand that Neil Gaiman's Sandman series is once again rumored to be made into a movie - I'm not sure it's a good idea honestly. It's such an intricate story - I would hate to see it chopped up. Frankly, it would make a much better mini-series, or anime, or cartoon - cartoon doesn't fit, animated drama sounds better doesn't it?
Anyway, here's how I would cast it.
[b][i]Dream:[/i][/b] Rupert Everett - even though Ric Ocasek from the cars in his early years would be the best choice. I just think Rup would look handsome very pale with mussed hair
[i][b]Death:[/b][/i] Angelina Jolie - who else? Not what's her name -had an affair with Kenneth Branaugh, stars in Merchant Ivory Films married Tim Burton - she's too old. Herm, speaking of Burton, he wouldn't make a bad Dream - and then there's Jonny Depp - how could I forget Depp as Dream? I digress, Jolie could play any of a number of the endless - all the women, Desire...
[i][b]Destiny:[/b][/i] Anyone in a monk's robe, or possibly Grace Jones, she looks good in cowls.
[b][i]Destruction:[/i][/b ] Bono, he's got the ego.
[i][b]Desire:[/b][/i] a young Nick Rhodes from Duran Duran.
[i][b]Despair:[/b][/i] Rosie O'Donnel. Seriously.
[i][b]Delirium who was once Delight:[/b][/i] Alison Hannigan? Not sure on this one - Bjork might be a better choice... (I know, I know, Tori Amos - but it just doesn't fit with the look...)
...and since I'm on the comic book subject - how's about [i][b]Ewan McGregor[/b][/i] as [i][b]Hellblazer[/b][/i]?
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| Smoke and Mirrors |
| 01.17.04 (5:51 pm) |
You are Smoke and Mirrors! You are idealistic,
unpredictable, and hypnotic. People might think
you're a show-off and have a need to be
surprising, but really youre just talkative and
get carried away with some subjects. You might
easily get jealous or feel lonely if something
is going wrong in your life. You probably like
fantasy, fiction and things that can
temporarily take you away from the world. You
have a great sense of humor and are enthralling
to be around.
*~Which Neil Gaiman book are you?~*
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| X-MEN |
| 01.17.04 (10:14 am) |
Huge X-MAN fan here.
I've been reading the comic(s) off and on for ages. Love the new movies. I think they're great and the casting is superb.
The only thing is, that when I was thinking about my dream cast for the movie, well, Professor X is the only one that matched the actual actor in the movie.
Just for giggles, here were my choices...
(This casting was in the 80's/90's so, we would be imagining a youger version of these folks.)
[i][b]Jean Gray[/b][/i] - Julia Roberts (I don't care for Roberts or Gray, that's why I thought they were a good match.)
[i][b]Cyclops [/b][/i]- Tom Cruise (Same reason I chose Julia Roberts)
[i][b]Wolverine[/b][/i] - Mel Gibson, eh at least I got the Aussie bit right.
[i][b]Rogue[/b][/i] - Me! (A'ight, just kidding, she's just one of my favorites.) I really never could figure out a good person to cast. I like Anna's portrayal, but I also like an older Rogue.
[i][b]Gambit [/b][/i]- My heart says Harry Connick, but my brain says Val Kilmer. You choose.
[i][b]Nightcrawler[/b][/i ] - Rupert Everett (I like my nightcrawler on the handsome side.)
[i][b]Storm[/b][/i] - Iman
[b][i]Hank McCoy [/i][/b]- Robin Williams. (I'm not sure why, maybe it's just because they are both so hairy.)
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| Another Childhood Memory Tainted. |
| 01.15.04 (7:10 pm) |
I wrote earlier today about the contrast between the sacred and the profane.
Well, here's an example that broke my pre-tween heart.
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VS.
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I can't explain why I became attached to Starsky and Hutch on such a spiritual level. Too much fan fic perhaps, or maybe the images of them sliding across the Torino to chase bad guys or wrapped up in towels to interview a suspect in a steam room are just to fresh in my memory?
I guess Starsky's still pretty hot for an old guy...
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Did I mention I own this? =http://sastinfans.bekkis.com target=_blank [image]DRAMA_1006444159.jpg[/image]
I have the Torino anyway. Now I just need the boys action figures.
(...and the BF thinks I'm immature...)
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| Life the Universe and Everything, with respect to Douglas Adams |
| 01.15.04 (1:56 pm) |
Growing up all I ever heard is, "life doesn't always turn out the way you want it to."
Duh...
I'm not a rock star, supermodel or actress, and (thank god) I am not married to Bon Jovi, Michael J. Fox or Joe Theisman. Johnny Carson isn't banging at my door for an interview, Adam Curry isn't constantly trying to hang out with me and I've not had any cat fights with Naomi Campbell. (Yes, I'm a child of the 80's.)
I never actually thought life would turn out *that* way. It was just fun to imagine.
[i][b]This is how I thought my life would really turn out to be.[/b][/i]
[i][b]Move to a city[/b][/i] - okay, so Houston's not Manhattan, but it happened.
[i][b]Get my own place[/b][/i] - erm, living in your boyfriends brand new home in the 'burbs isn't exactly what I was going for - I was thinking small, apartment in the heart of the city, eccentrically decorated and a lovely stained glass window. Why stained glass? I have no idea. I just imagined it that way - you know, the colorful light playing against the background of my hip apartment, the whole profane and sacred contrast thing. Never did I imagine myself in a big house cleaning up after someone else and pondering the fate of the living room furniture from hell.
[i][b]The cat plan[/b][/i]- Okay, I have the perfect cat. But I keep seeing her with the colorful lights playing against her fur while she sleeps on a pile of mystical and ancient texts picked up at the local Salvation Army.
[i][b]Career[/b][/i] - well, for what it's worth, I did do the whole archaeology thing for a while. I will miss it but I always saw myself "retiring" (at the grand old age of twenty nine *snicker*) to a nice job in a library or dusty old bookstore. Where did I end up? A financial services company.
What the heck?
I've never been concerned by money. All I've ever needed was enough to pay the bills. That got out of hand and now I'm knee deep in 401k's, incentive plans and benefits. Benefits I'm worrying about.... and don't think I'm not going to get that long term care insurance. When I go to a home, it's gonna be a swanky one.
[i][b]Love life[/b][/i] - Always figured I would have a boyfriend. Never planned on living with him or even getting married. But now, with the 401k's and benefits, I find myself thinking (thinking ='s worrying) about my future with the BF. Where do we go from here? What's the next step? Can I live with a man who voted for Ross Pierot and thinks home decor is severed animal heads?
[i][b]Kids[/b][/i] - I have a cat. All's well that's going well.
[i][b]Emotional state[/b][/i] - I had this pipe dream that once I graduated life would be peaceful and happy and balanced. Boy was I a sucker. As everyone finds out, the more freedom and joy you get the more you have to weed through the flowers for it. ...boy, do I have some weeds in my garden.
That's it.
That's what I thought life would be like and how it has turned out so far.
I'm in a bit of a holding pattern, a crossroads, a, uhm, ...can't think of any more metaphors... Anyway, where do I go from here?
Yeah, I'm not so sure either.
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| Stir Crazy |
| 01.15.04 (1:15 pm) |
Stir Crazy.
That nicely sums up how I've been feeling the last few days.
Several of my plans have fell through this week, not the least of which was meeting up with some folks I have chatted with for years on the net. I also had an aborted mission to find a quick way to my new job - I ended up very lost and very cranky and last but not least, I missed lunch with the boyfriend today.
I did learn that there is [b]NO[/b] way I am driving to work - Park and Ride here I come, Yahoo mail really does suck and that I must carry my cell phones at all times or I will miss out on sushi!!! [i][b]%#&![/b][/i]
But I digress, I've gone stir crazy. Why is it that I can go weeks at a time at home doing nothing waiting for a contract job and be fine, but now that I've gotten a FT job, I can't relax for three days til I start? HUH?! WHY?!
It's making me nuts.
Good thing I start tomorrow...
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| Troubling |
| 01.14.04 (7:03 am) |
Just heard some news about the Kobe Bryant rape case. Seems the woman may suffer from bipolar disorder. Gone [i]unchecked[/i], bipolar [i]may[/i] result in hypersexuality.
I don't care what you think of Kobe. I don't care what you think of the girl. This is tragic.
=http://www.nimh.nih.gov/publi...Bipolar disorder is misunderstood and treatable. Meaning, in spite of popular belief, if the girl does have the disorder she [i]could[/i] have it under control. I would hate to see the defense cruxify her for her disease. I would also hate for Mr. Bryant to be wrongfully found guilty because of a "manic" episode gone south.
It's just a nightmare.
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| Final Destination |
| 01.14.04 (6:47 am) |
Saw [i]=http://www.rottentomatoes.com...Final Destination[/i] last night - the cut for tv version - more than made up for the dreadful, [i]Wrong Turn[/i].
Cheating Death's design by narrowingly escaping death in a plane crash, our protagonists must continue to interpret Death's pattern in order to stay alive.
...one of these patterns just happens to be =http://www.johndenver.com/John Denver's (died in a plane crash remember?) song, =http://www.lyrics007.com/John...%20Denver%20Lyrics/Rocky% 20Mountain%20High%20Lyric s.htmlRocky Mountain High...
A song I had been playing earlier in the day.
Coincidence?
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| If I could turn back time, |
| 01.13.04 (6:18 pm) |
If I could find a way,
to get back the two hours I just spent watching
[i]Wrong Turn[/i]
I would still give the PPV folks their $4.
Think [i]Texas Chainsaw Massacre[/i] meets [i]Deliverance[/i].
Okay, I knew that coming in - but Jeremy Sisto is in it! He's cute! I like watching him!
Guess what? (spoiler alert, blah, blah, blah)
HE'S THE FIRST IMPORTANT ONE KILLED!
He had ten, maybe twenty good minutes in the movie. I could have just logged into his website and looked at his face for that long...
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| The Surreal Life |
| 01.13.04 (9:09 am) |
They reran the first eppy last night.
Even. Better. The. SECOND. TIME. AROUND.
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| Jebus is KING! |
| 01.12.04 (8:08 am) |
=http://sastinfans.bekkis.com target=_blank [image]DRAMA_1119052880.jpg[/image]
Yesterday I was deep in lament. Nothing to blog about. Nothing on my mind. The wondrous halls of pop culture seemed so empty, so far away.
I then asked unto the Lord - WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?!
...then it happened.
8'clock.
=http://community.realitytvwor...The Surreal Life.
Tammy Faye Bakker and Ron Jeremy in the same house.
Vanilla "Rob" Ice and his beilefs in Aliens as our creators.
Baywatch and Real World Bimbos duking it out.
The cherry atop the sundae?
Erik Estrada as the voice of sanity.
Praise you Jebus. Praise you.
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 01.11.04 (8:04 am) |
=http://subliminal.lunanina.co... target=_blank [image]um.bmp[/image]
- Mitchell:: county
- Mercury:: god
- Cycle:: Ulster
- Engagement::ring
- Alternative:: music
- Gang:: bang (it rhymes)
- Emotional:: Breakdown
- Skinny:: Supermodel
- Hypochondriac:: me
- Insecure:: ditto
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| More Saturday Nonsense |
| 01.10.04 (4:20 pm) |
You are guided by light. While all can be bad
around you, you still stay calm and make things
better. There aren't a lot of people in the
world like you. (Rate my test)
What force is your soul?
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You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)
A Deeper Look Inside Yourself (with pics)
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Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
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Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)
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Aren't I the cheery little spirit..
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| I am so bored, or am I just another sheep? Who cares. |
| 01.10.04 (4:04 pm) |
15 Years Ago, I:
1. Started High School
2. movedin with my grandmother
3. I learned that what was happening to me was called a panic attack.
4. I was an insomniac.
5. Went to church a lot.
10 Years Ago, I:
1. I was a College Sophomore and Super sorority GIRL!
2. Met the man I am currently living with
3. Drank too much
4. Still had an obsession with Rod Stewart
5. I was an orientation leader on my campus.
5 Years Ago, I:
1. Was working at a Specialty store.
2. Was mending broken feelings of trust.
3. Lost a dear friend in a climbing accident.
4. Was sick and didn't know it.
5. Lived in Kansas.
3 Years Ago, I:
1. Was in grad school
2. was in a bad relationship.
3. stopped talking to my mother
4. was writing my grandmother once a week while she was in the nursing home
5. I was not terribly happy.
1 Year Ago, I:
1. Very ill.
2. Living in an apartment.
3. Wasn't working.
4. lost my grandmother .
5. I made a lot of progress emotionally.
Yesterday, I:
1. Stayed home and waited for the fed ex guy.
2. Ate at my favorite Mexican restaurant - Otilia's
3. blogged, posted and e-mailed.
4. Read my new Death comic thingy
5. Marveled at the lack of decent television programming.
Today, I:
1. began reading the Da Vinci Code (finally).
2. Made the bed
3. Clipped R. Kitty's talons, er claws.
4. Had deer summer sausage for lunch.
5. have indigestion.
6. am posting the nonsensical.
Tomorrow, I:
1. will probably give up the ghost and go to Starbuck's.
2. take several naps
3. will have a yoga session
4. will find the most direct bus route to my new job
5. will ponder the efficacy of doing laundry while though my hamper is full I still have a closet full of clothes.
5 Games I Like:
1. Scrabble
2. America McGee's Alice
3. Irritate the kitty.
4. Alchemy
5. bejeweled
5 Things I'd Buy With $10,000:
1. Erm, myself out of some of my debt.
2. new glasses
3. Flat screen tv - oh yeah
4. lifetime wireless internet
5. a new computer suite.
Top 5 Songs Lately- or always:
1. U2 - Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For.
2. All Along the Watchtower - the Indigo Girls.
3. Down by the River - Ray Buchanan
4. You Belong To Me - Dean Martin
5. A Change is Goinna Come - Sam Cooke
3 Bad Habits I Have
1. Procrastination.
2. Selfdoubt.
3. Pessimism.
Interests at the moment:
1. How do they make those &*$^ dollz....
2. Learnning about the Investment community I unwittingly got a job in.
3. How to save my money.
4. Getting energized.
TV Shows I Like:
1. Carnivale
2. Real World/Road Rules Challenge. You go NORM!
Places I've Lived (in THIS lifetime)
1. Durant, OK
2. Colbert, OK
3. Calera, OK
4. Silo, OK
5. Mead, OK
6. Wichita, KS
7. Houston, TX
Places I've lived (in previous lifetimes)(A'ight, seriously, I was told this by "a psychic.")
1. Italy ( a princess I was)
2. France ( my lady's favorite lady in waiting)
3. The American South (yes, a slave, but apparently was quite content when freed.)
My Top Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. Money
2. new jobl
3. love life
My Top Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. New Job
2. love life
(ironic isn't it?)
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| My group of Goddesses |
| 01.10.04 (3:17 pm) |
Me first of course...
I wonder exactly how Melissa will conquer foes with foil?
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| The Red Planet and the Burning Bush |
| 01.09.04 (12:18 pm) |
Seems Dubya's gonna send an astronaut to Mars.
Maybe this is his long term plan for the Israeli/Palestinian issues, or the poor, maybe he'll eventually send the poor there...
Doesn't anyone read Asimov?
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| Cuteness - you've been warned. |
| 01.09.04 (11:02 am) |
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| SEXAY! ::two snaps:: |
| 01.09.04 (10:07 am) |
A'ght, got this from Nightqueen's blog so you know not to go to this quiz at work or if you are under age.
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
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| Dilemma: 9 to 5 |
| 01.09.04 (9:09 am) |
Today's dilemma is brought to you by the letter Y and number 0.
Cause of dilemma: I now have a regular job/career.
Dilemma itself: I have never worked a regular 9 to 5 job before - ever - never - not once - not in my whole life.
I've worked 8 hour shifts. I 've worked 8 hour shifts several days in a row. Always temp jobs, or in retail - part time. I've had more than two part time jobs at a given period. It's not that I'm not used to working - I'm just not used to working under such constraints.
It makes me nervous.
Same place, day after day, same people, no more archaeology, no more internet addiction, just a real, grown-up, salaried, 401K, benifitted job.
I think I need a valium.
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| Interview |
| 01.08.04 (2:31 pm) |
I have just been on the longest job interview of my life.
Upside? Sounds promising, has benefits that are EXCELLENT, and a great location.
Downside? This could cut into my blogging time.
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| Dodgy Film of the Day |
| 01.07.04 (10:34 am) |
It's been a long time since I've felt the need to post a dodgy film blog. Even longer since one of the movies has been considered, "mainstream." But dammit, I paid $3.95 on PPV to watch this, uhm, whatever it was and it deserves a review.
=http://www.tombraidermovie.co...Lara Croft Tomb Raider and the Cradle of Life.
To begin with 2 things;
1. I love Angelina Jolie. Freakshow that her life has been I admire her in a weird way. She's living her life the way she wants to... ...and she can act. She was fabulous in =http://www.nitrovideo.com/mov...Gia and =http://www.nabou.com/celebrit...Girl Interrupted. FABULOUS.
2. =http://www.sadgeezer.com/RedD...Rimmer from =http://www.reddwarf.co.uk/Red Dwarf is in it. Not enough, but he is there.
What's my problem then? Well there is the question of complete lack of anything but snappy repartee and people jumping off things.
Seriously. Those are the stunts. Lara Croft jumps off building, plane, and something else - I was playing on the computer by that time in the film.
My suggestion? More Rimmer less jumping...
:P
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| Immature |
| 01.06.04 (4:23 pm) |
[i]=http://www.hyperdictionary.co...Webster's
Definition: Im`ma*ture", a. [L. immaturus; pref. im- not +
maturus mature, ripe. See {Mature}.]
1. Not mature; unripe; not arrived at perfection of full
development; crude; unfinished; as, immature fruit;
immature character; immature plans. ``An ill-measured and
immature counsel.'' --Bacon.
2. Premature; untimely; too early; as, an immature death.
[R.] --Jer. Taylor.
Worldnet Dictionary
Definition: [adj] lacking in development; "immature plans"; "an unformed character"
[adj] (of birds) not yet having developed feathers; "a small unfledged sparrow on the window sill"
[adj] not yet mature
[adj] characteristic of a lack of maturity; "immature behavior"
[adj] not fully developed or mature; not ripe; "unripe fruit"; "fried green tomatoes"; "green wood"
[adj] (used of living things especially persons) in an early period of life or development or growth; "young people"
Synonyms: adolescent, baby(a), babyish, boyish, boylike, callow, childish, childlike, childly, early, embryonal, embryonic, formative, girlish, green, inchoative, inexperienced, infant(a), infantile, jejune, junior, juvenile, larval, little, naive, newborn, preadolescent, prepubertal, prepubescent, prepupal, preteen, pubescent, puerile, pupal, puppyish, puppylike, schoolboyish, schoolgirlish, small, teen, teenage, teenaged, tender, unaged, underdeveloped, undeveloped, unfeathered, unfledged, unformed, unripe, unripened, unsophisticated, vernal, vulnerable, youngish, youthful
Antonyms: fledged, mature, old, ripe
See Also: immature, new, premature, young [/i]
I was referred to as immature by my significant other - we were in a [b]HEAVY[/b] conversation at the time. It was "not meant to [b]hurt [/b]me" but was used in its less than positive form.
For instance, I do not think he meant I was youthful or lacking feathers...
::blood simmers quietly::
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| !!NEWSFLASH!! |
| 01.06.04 (5:52 am) |
MSNBC reports that fast food is linked to obesity in children.
Add that one to the D'OH! files...
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| S Kitty! |
| 01.05.04 (3:41 pm) |
Here's R. Kitty's little sister. Snapped from the arms of death she was - bf's mom and the vet nursed her back to health. Now she is enjoying the simple life, out in the Hill Country with my Grandparents.
=http://sastinfans.bekkis.com target=_blank [image]DRAMA_253874845.jpg[/image]
=http://sastinfans.bekkis.com target=_blank [image]DRAMA_1130664932.jpg[/image]
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| Exit, blog left |
| 01.04.04 (3:08 pm) |
asking the impossible
incredible frustration
never ending babbling
seen and not heard
undercurrent of tension
my life, my business, my decision
once a miltary man, always a military man
will you please shut up
hormonal imbalance
terrible attitude adjustment
I mock the federales
cheap prescription drugs in Me - HI - CO
Peggy Hill
cat tree
sleeping, naturally
could you just relax for a moment?
AaaaaCHOOOOOO
separate beds
more potter, less chat
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
| 01.04.04 (2:46 pm) |
- Vintage:: clothing
- Longing:: men
- Specimen:: men
- Mock:: men
- Shit:: no comment
- Friday:: is on my mind
- Cruel:: not speaking
- Insufficient:: communication
- Pessimistic:: attitudinally challenged
- Grin:: wicked
Take time to visit the site and get the weekly mutterings! Click the link below!
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| Old Family Recipe |
| 01.03.04 (2:52 pm) |
Jezebel Sauce
Good on cold meats, barbeque, eggrolls, cream cheese and crackers.
Ingredients
1 18oz jar pineapple preserves
1 18 oz jar apple jelly
1 2oz can dry mustard, sifted
3 tablespoons prepared horseradish
1 and 1/2 teaspoon cracked black pepper
Preparation
Blend preserves and jelly. Add mustard, horseradish and pepper. Stir together and refrigerate. As far as we know it will keep indefinitely. We've never had a jar last more than a day or two though...
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| I Vant to be Alone... |
| 01.02.04 (10:52 am) |
I am overloaded on Holiday cheer, family and day trips. I just want to crawl under my covers and hide.
...well, I'm off to clean the house. More company is heading our way.
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